I am so miserably unhappy. In plain English, I am not the same person I was before I had RAI. It seems the doctors are unwilling to see the pain we are in. I barely have enough breath or energy to do things like I used to. I am so heavy my back is killing me. But I must say that not a day goes by that I do not cry in the privacy of my home. At this point my regular internist takes care of me.

She said I was fat from eating! I then went to a woman endocrinologist - she looked at me and pooh-poohed everything I said. He said nothing and did nothing. I kept crying to the endocrinologist about how big I was getting.

I went to an endocrinologist and he had me take RAI (a high dose), and then I was put on Synthroid. Diagnosis: multitoxic nodular thyroid. I was seriously hyperthyroid. I had a severe case of vertigo in 2000, and the doctor I was taken to found out that my heart rate was out of control and my thyroid readings were bad. In 1999, I was told I had nodes on my thyroid and had a biopsy, which showed all was well. In the past, the heaviest she had been was 190 after two pregnancies. Also my neck, which used to be long and graceful, is now squat, short, and I have these fat bulges in the indentations of my collarbones. What I find most frightening is the way my body has changed shape. So I went from 190 to 230! That is my current weight! I ballooned up to 230 pounds. He never told me that I was going to gain this much weight.